I have semi-recently stopped using social media entirely, as it makes me anxious and depressed. It seems "content addiction" is not so easily stopped, as in its place I've started to read lots and lots of news articles. This makes me perhaps slightly less anxious and depressed than Twitter did, so maybe it's part of the healing process. I read these articles from an app that frequently updates and links to a wide variety of articles from different states, countries, and ideological leanings. A topic that has popped up often, a new article perhaps every one to two weeks, is about a mother who regrets, or at one time felt that she regretted, having her child or children.
This comes in a variety of flavors and I do not have a collection of links of all of them that I have ever read. One was about a woman who was raised to believe she should marry and have children as soon as possible, thus winding up with four kids by the time she was in her early 20s, to a man who was not a good husband or father. This situation resulted in her becoming a single mother to these four children early on and she began to regret her decisions that led to her being in this situation, up to and including having all four of these children. This particular woman was able to sort her emotions once the more tumultuous period of her life had stopped and concluded that she doesn't, and likely never did actually, regret having her children, but rather the circumstances in which they were born and thus the way their presence contributed to her life and how she wound up living.
This type of story would have a very different commentary from its more widely seen companion, which is the type of mother who declares in no unclear terms that she in fact regrets fully and completely that her children were ever born. There is no redemption arch at the end of this story, it's simply a full stop tragedy from start to finish.
These articles make a strong effort to ensure the reader that regretting having your children is common and valid. There was even an accompanying article just a few days ago, engineered carefully as a response to a common rebuttal against admitting your regret for your children. This is of course, "you will hurt your children emotionally and mentally if you tell them you wish they had not been born." This response article was that it was actually important to tell your children if you regret that they were born, with accompanying justification. What we have appears to be a push toward a cultural acceptance of "parental regret" - and all the neuroses that will surely come from being an "unwanted" child.
I am not new to the concept of people who regret becoming a parent. There was a tweet thread that went viral a couple years ago for a man who candidly admitted he and his wife both wished their son had never been born and, at the young age of seven, had told him so directly. He was admonished and torn to shreds. He was by all accounts the perfect villain, as he also had obnoxious things in his profile, like calling himself a "polymath", which is the most obnoxious possible way to say that you are very smart and well read and know a lot of things about a wide variety of topics, which people don't normally say if they want anyone to like them.
However, that was years ago. It may have been as long ago as 2016. I vaguely recall having written about it, but I didn't notice anything after a brief search and gave up. Anyway, there are very few people who did not attack this man for, mostly, telling a seven year old he shouldn't have been born. They said, "even if he says he understands, he's going to have issues stemming from this. It doesn't matter that you told him "you still love him," you told him that you wish he wasn't born. Those aren't compatible concepts." This was the general consensus, that even if you regret having your children, for heaven's sake just pretend you don't, for their mental and emotional well-being.
More recently but still quite awhile ago, there was an article that was a list of "anonymous contributions" from parents who regretted having their children but did not want to admit it publicly, obviously due to the response they would receive. Many people who regret having their children claim that they "still love them unconditionally," but one submission to this list stood out to me. This one was actually from a father, which you rarely see - these are almost exclusively written by mothers. The reason this submission stood out was because he did not try to say that he still unconditionally loved his child, or even loved her at all. He of course felt a strong obligation to protect and care for her, but "love" did not stem from this, or at least not "feelings" of love as we generally understand them. He said something along the lines of, "I would do anything necessary to protect and care for her, but I do not love her," and finished by saying that this makes him feel horrendously guilty and like an absolute monster. I feel awful for this man, as I'm sure he would choose to love his daughter if he could, but he does not know how to.
Unfortunately for all of the parents of regretted children, I think this man is one of few who accurately described what these parents are actually experiencing. The parental obligation felt to care for and protect the children exists, but you cannot reconcile not wanting them to exist with "loving" them. You do not usually wish people were never born when you love them. I have seen countless explanations to try and justify this "I regret having my kids but I still love them unconditionally," mindset, even someone who went so far as to say it's simply "one of the many paradoxes of being human". If you are the kind of person who is satisfied to not think about things very hard, you may be happy to accept this explanation, but it's not truly acceptable.
Maybe it is more easily understood by the person who feels such a way, that there is somehow some mysterious equilibrium where you feel and understand true "love" for your child, while simultaneously thinking the world would be a lot better if he didn't exist in it. The stark reality though, is that these are irreconcilable - the kind of cognitive dissonance that will cause mental holes in your thinking processes and will ultimately harm you and your child.
Some people take it much further, like
this article where the mother in question states outright that having a child is boring, uninteresting, and not worth it. This mother's regret drips obstinately with selfishness and a stark lack of empathy. I repeatedly had a reaction of visceral disgust with some of the things she said, which of course the people who write these things know their audience is having. It surely resonates with a small subset of the population, but the push to "normalize regretting your children" is met with overwhelming disapproval. Just check the comments on the article for a breath of fresh air after reading such a harrowing tale - no one is buying this.
Not yet, anyway. As with all other "social justice" and adjacent issues (which this is, make no mistake), they will simply push this more and more and attempt to guilt and shame people who - correctly - react negatively to it. When people reject the notion that it's simply "normal and acceptable" to wish you never had kids because your newborn is "unfulfilling" (an incorrect assessment, by the way), they will be accused of being bigots perpetuating outdated societal standards and all the typical rigmarole that comes with the forced re-engineering of social norms. They will be accused of alienating people who have these difficult struggles, or risking more 'regretted children' coming into the world by not "allowing this conversation to be visible" and so on and so forth.
The true issue here is that - as usual, when it comes to these things - the parent in question has their own mental and emotional issues that need addressing. These people try and justify their issue as being "normal", but by all accounts, these are the outliers. The vast majority of parents love their children while simultaneously being very grateful that they exist. Children are very fulfilling and enriching, even as newborns, and even most parents who had "accidental" pregnancies wind up loving their children and being very happy that they were born. In fact, many of these articles try very hard to conflate "accidental pregnancies" with parenthood regret, when they are separate issues. You can have accidental pregnancies and never once regret having that child. No one would be able to tell the difference unless you told them.
Yes, some people do not want kids, or want kids and then wind up regretting it, but that's why it's not "normal" - some people do not want their kids. While the poll numbers for such concerns overwhelmingly show very few people regret having their children, there have been articles that have the audacity to claim - with of course absolutely no basis - that surely the number of parents who regret having their children is much higher. Despite these polls being anonymous, admitting regretting your children's birth is so taboo, that the number of parents with this regret is easily double the reported numbers! - or so we can claim with zero evidence. One particular person who wrote such an op-ed insisted that most parents regret having their children - y'know, probably - despite the numbers showing that the overwhelming majority do not regret them.
All this said, it is an important discussion, in fact, as we do want to minimize the amount of people who wind up having children when they shouldn't have. It's hard to guess, though, with a significant number of people who "never wanted kids" having them and loving them, while others wanted kids and then regret it. How do you figure the difference? What litmus test can we take?
Most people are likely to find my suggestions unsatisfying, offensive, presumptuous, or obnoxious. Maybe even yet another adjective, or a combination therein.
I can tell you with quite some confidence what is not the answer. You might still love having kids even if you don't like babies or other people's babies or kids. You might still love having kids even if you "love sleeping in on the weekends," or even if you're reluctant about the idea of not "having free time," or if the idea of schedules terrifies you. You may hate the sound of screaming children, the thought of changing a diaper may make you sick to your stomach, and you may be unable to imagine yourself as having the proper nurturing attitude or attentiveness required to keep a child alive - and still love and cherish your children more than you could have ever imagined. You may even, as horribly rude and presumptuous it may be to insist other wise, want kids later even if you are "absolutely sure" you don't want them right now.
I know these are not the right ways to know that you wouldn't want kids because I experienced all of them. A particularly strange tidbit about me is that my firstborn son was the very first baby I ever held. At 27 years old I had never held a baby, even when frequently visiting my friends who had just had a child. I was pregnant and refused to hold their child, as I did not want to.
I read an article wherein someone's friend, who had always wanted children, asked to "shadow" this woman who was a mom to get an idea of what it was like to raise kids. The friend hated it so much she vowed to never have kids. This was a mistake. I am completely unsurprised she hated another mom's routine and parenting style while experiencing a complete emotional disconnect to the children involved. I have three kids and shadowing another mom sounds like a nightmare.
No, what I believe is the right way to know whether or not you would love your kids and feel like having them was the right choice has much more to do with your attitude and personality. I have two key things that I have discerned are likely to be good indicators that you would do well being a parent, and the second one may cause some offense, and maybe even both of them.
Do you take pride in your work, even if that work is unpaid, unappreciated, unnoticed, or considered unimportant (by either other people or even yourself)?
If the answer is no, you may have trouble finding parenthood fulfilling, or you may begin to resent it. You will be frequently, if not nearly constantly, unappreciated, mostly by your kids themselves. There is no boss to impress or coworkers who are going to look to you for advice as you allow yourself to puff up your feathers a little bit in pride. If you find that work isn't worth doing if you're not paid for it, buckle up for working 24/7 (even if you are otherwise employed, guess what happens when you're not working your paid position?) for free.
I used to have a job and it was somewhere where people in suits look down at you. It was the kind of job where your social betters would say to get a real job. It was the kind of position where the people I was helping may have often failed to notice that I am a human being. I still took pride in the work I did, and I did the best possible work I could do. I would make a strong argument that this kind of attitude helps a lot as a mother. I read many, many articles about people who are mothers and the complex feelings they have for it. A large number of people, for whatever reason, naturally look down upon their "position" as a mother. Some fight against their inner predisposition for seeing the role of motherhood as not being important or as being "less than", but they still had those presumptions to start. In an act of self-preservation, mothers have to fight those feelings, or else they doom themselves to a position they believe, perhaps subconsciously, is unimportant and unfulfilling.
Whatever work you do, you should take pride in and do it well. You will find fulfillment in that - that is to say, your attitude toward your work will manifest as your fulfillment, regardless of what the work is.
A much more controversial, I'm sure, benchmark to decide if having kids is right for you - are you selfish?
Of course everyone's natural instinct to this question would be "No! Of course not!" but I would advise against lying to yourself. After all, this is a very, very important choice to make. You may very well be selfish. Think genuinely about it. Do you care about the needs of others, even if they are different needs from yours? Do you find it acceptable to compromise between your needs, wants, and desires, and those of others? Do you recognize and respect the humanity and innate value of the life of people who are not you? Think about these questions in consideration of people other than those close to you - would you give up your spot on the bus for an older person? What about someone who simply looked tired, or someone who just asked if they could have your seat because they just really want to sit down? Do you tend to withhold love and obligation from someone who normally receives it, but has recently made you angry? Do you try to take "revenge" on people for wronging you? These are all selfish behaviors and may indicate that you don't have the empathy to care for a child.
From reading so many articles about parents who regret having their children, I have noticed a common trend, which is that these people are very selfish. It may be hard to spot selfishness, as many people misconstrue it for other things. It requires a thoughtful person to find the distinction between someone's "aspirations, dreams, and goals" and their sense of entitlement. It has been common lately, in fact, to try and redefine the willingness of the mother to "sacrifice themselves" for their children as a bad, negative thing - one of those outdated societal standards that, for some reason, needs to change. Yes, there is a difference between a mother who practically kills themselves over caring for everyone else other than her own self, and the mother who understands that some sacrifices for their children and family are simply unavoidable and part of the package deal. The problem has come from the conflation of the two, and it stems from a misunderstanding as to what truly is selfishness and entitlement.
This flies in the face of everything you've heard about achieving your dreams and reaching your goals, but your life isn't only about you. It's about you, yes certainly, but you necessarily affect the lives of everyone around you in good and bad ways, so it is not only about you. "Finding happiness" is not solely a "you" journey - your choices affect everyone around you, to some degree. There is a lot of crossover I don't have the time or desire to get into here, but the old argument that adults should be able to do whatever they want as long as it "doesn't hurt anyone" is a bad basis for belief due to the unchangeable reality that we all exist here together and affect one another. You may very well hurt other people by finding your own happiness and chasing your dreams - whether or not it's warranted may be another discussion entirely, but the fact is we are all affecting one another constantly. Your life necessarily involves other people and you have to think about what that means for you. If you find that you couldn't imagine changing your desires because of other people's desires around you, you shouldn't have children.
I would argue that the mother who finds her newborn "unfulfilling" or just otherwise uninteresting is suffering from an aspect of selfishness - the inability to see the value in other people besides themselves. The inability to even think about the concept of another person. A lot of thoughtless people have often looked at other people's babies and thought that they appeared somewhat boring - or that all they do is poop, cry, and sleep. This has created an untrue trope of babies as being "annoying" - and thoughtless people will allow this to influence their belief about their own child. It's a crying shame, as babies - at the very least, your own baby - are absolutely not uninteresting, not as newborns or at any point thereafter.
The very first interesting thing a baby does is exist. It's fascinating that this human was created - whether you believe that God stitched him together in your womb or he's just a cosmic accident of two sets of cells bumping really hard into each other, the fact that this baby is here is astonishing. It seems very shallow and thoughtless to behold this infant and not be dumbfounded by his physical presence. The first day in the hospital for all three of my children was spent in bewilderment that I had grown and nourished this baby, this precious being, and that he is now here and in my arms - each and every time it is amazing, even after having done it before. I can't imagine what sort of television fuzz is going on in the brain of the mother who finds this newborn uninteresting. From there it only gets more wild as the baby open his eyes, clasps his little hands, and begins to react to the world around him. At as young as six weeks, a baby may learn to make a vocal sound for the explicit purpose of getting your attention, and yet some women report finding their baby "boring" for as long as six months. Unbelievable.
I strongly believe that it is a lack of empathy, stemming primarily from selfishness, that creates the problem for some people where they find their newborn as nothing more than a burden and a chore. This type of parenthood regret may go away once the child grows into their own personality, since it's much easier to relate to someone when they can talk and have opinions on things. But that's quite a gamble to take, especially since the needs of children actually exponentially increase as they get older. The newborn phase is sleep deprived, but ultimately the easiest, as their needs are incredibly basic. It gets so much more difficult once they realize they can cry because they want to play with a pocket knife when you won't let them.
I'm sure it sounds like I am shaming people who don't connect to their newborn or don't find their baby fascinating, but I don't think this is an insurmountable problem. It's possible to learn empathy and to unlearn your selfishness. You're not innately a bad person for having these feelings - as I said before, it's very important that we figure these things out ahead of time. If you are selfish and uninterested in having children, you probably should not. But if you think you want children, but find that you may have an empathy problem, it's something you can fix.
I actually used to be incredibly selfish, and twice as thoughtless. I treated my family as a means to an end and often only called when I needed something. Unfortunately, I did not have an easy lesson - ultimately the catalyst to snapping me out of my selfishness was having my mom suddenly die when I was young. I hadn't spoken to her for three months before then, and not because we were feuding or on bad terms. I just never made an effort. Losing your mother that way can dig up a lot of seemingly unrelated trauma, which I had desperately needed to reflect upon. There was a much longer healing process toward learning true empathy and consideration for others that followed, but without it I'm sure I would have been a terrible mother.
Is there anything else which may help you predict if you will regret having your children? It's of course important to ensure that you can handle the physical demands of being a parent, but that doesn't necessarily translate into regret for your children's existence when that need is not fulfilled. Some people may conflate the difficulty in raising their children with regret for their existence, but this is either an inaccurate reactive conclusion due to stress and failure to cope properly, or again due to selfishness. The woman from the first article that I mentioned suffered from this problem - when raising her children became very difficult, she felt as if she regretted having had them. She was in a bad place in her life and when she fixed her other problems, she realized she did not regret having her children.
"I regret having my children because raising them is hard" is an unhealthy conclusion which is usually ultimately wrong and reflexive. If you find that it is true, then this is selfishness yet again. If your reaction to someone needing your time and energy is that they should have never been born, then that's ultimately selfishness - a alack of respect of the innate value of someone else's human life. It would make more sense to regret the decisions or ill-fated events that occurred to make it so difficult for you to raise those children. If you find that you resent people for needing you, and consequently losing out on some of your own needs and desires because of that, then you are selfish and shouldn't have kids.
If giving birth harmed you or ultimately something about having your kids was the catalyst for other difficult or harmful events, it's not healthy to connect this to the children themselves and you should redirect your frustrations to the actual harm itself or the people or systems which allowed such harm to occur. If you find yourself thinking it simply would have been much easier for your children to have not been born in the first place instead of being able to see past the child as the issue and understand the issue lies elsewhere, then you may be suffering from selfishness.
Now, coming to harm through pregnancy and giving birth is common, and an unfortunate side effect of that is resentment of the child. This is a real problem and is certainly serious and deserves attention - but it is another case of placing blame where it doesn't belong. This sort of thing warrants some sort of counselling or therapy and is as serious as post-partum depression, if not sometimes a cause of it. Now, resent and regret are different things - and I would argue it's actually possible to resent something about your child while loving them, as long as you do not also regret having that child. In this scenario, you love the child and don't wish for their un-existence, but simply wish they hadn't "caused" the harm done to you by birthing them. The desire for this harm to have not occurred manifests unhealthfully as resentment and is something that must be worked through. Part of the cause of this resentment is grieving for what the child "should have" been and healing involves coming to terms with how things wound up instead.
This is different from selfishness as it stems not from your inability to see and value your child, but an inability to accurately view the situation and scenario, separating your baby himself from the unfortunate tragedy that occurred concurrently with his birth. There can be crossover between resentment and regret as well as between resentment and selfishness, but we're getting very far into the weeds here. Ultimately, what I aim to establish by bringing up the difference at all is simply that not all complex relationships with our children are due to selfishness. What is selfish is trying to convince everyone that wishing your child wasn't born is totally normal and should be socially acceptable.
It's actually quite revealing that parents who find themselves too selfish to appreciate having children would push to normalize such a concept - due to their underlying narcissism, they find it imperative to insist that what they think and feel must be acceptable and anything less than full understanding for their misguided thought process is an attack on them. Accepting that maybe there is, in fact, something wrong with them, simply doesn't jive with their self-importance.
It is, by all accounts, important to have this discussion. But not because it should be "acceptable" - the parents who find themselves regretting their children need counselling as much as the parents who resent their children. It helps no one to try to convince us that we should simply accept that some parents wish their kids - with all their emotions, relationships, impacts on us and others, all their experiences, memories, and complex inner consciousness and lives - should simply have never existed. I can't think of a more cruel indictment from your own parent, and yet these people want it to simply be accepted as "normal" and then we all nod our heads and move on. No, these people need therapy to find out what's wrong with them, because it's actually wrong. We should not accept it, we need to fix it.
The article where the author tried to justify explaining to your children that you regretted having them postulates that you may as well tell them because they will pick up on how you treat them due to wishing they were never born. This argument itself paints a bright red, glaring and obvious picture of precisely why it's not possible to argue that you still love the child who you wish didn't exist - they would not pick up on this if they were truly loved as fully and unconditionally as you purport. How could they pick up on your regret for their existence if you loved them the same as a parent whose child does not pick up on "wish you weren't here" vibes? There necessitates a difference if you can argue that the child "knows".
This is also a great argument for why the problem lies with the parent, as well as the fact that it could be fixed. The argument made by this author, is to go with the flow of your mental hangups and dump them on your child - regretting your child is totally normal, so don't try to go to counselling so that you can properly care for and love that child - that you insist you love so dearly in spite of wishing they weren't there for you to love. The man who admitted he did not love his daughter is the only sincere person I've seen who suffers from regret for their own flesh and blood child, as he does not delude himself into thinking he's providing the emotionally enriching love he knows children deserve. He understands the problem is him, and he clearly mourns for this problem, but cannot fix it by himself. If people stopped trying to tell him it was "normal" - which he knows in his heart it is not, which is why he feels like a monster for it - then maybe he would feel more empowered to seek counselling to help him love his daughter like he knows he should. It's true that he's shamed by cultural and social norms that tell him he's a monster for not loving his daughter, but the solution is not to empower him to simply, what, be brave enough to say it publicly? He should be empowered to find a real solution.
Yes, of course, if you regretted your child and it spilled over into how you treated and raised them to the point where they suffered some sort of mental issue due to it, then part of the healing process for them would be to admit it. But ideally it would not come to that - how is this seen as an acceptable solution? Just passing on your neuroses to your child? The author offered that she was a child whose parents "regret having her", and that being told the truth helped her recover and heal from her trauma. This may well be true, and perhaps it is merely my overstimulated nature to believe this, but it seems to me there is no true "solution" to this relationship disaster.
There can of course be closure, but the closure you get from realizing the disconnect you felt from your parents was real all along is no substitute for a rich relationship with your parents. Unless your solution is to basically go no contact with your parents, how do you even continue to have an adult relationship with them? How do you ever ask them for advice, or for help? The nagging thought lingering forever in your head, that they would have been much happier were it not for you and your trifling existence? Your birth, childhood, coming of age, all nothing but road blocks to your parents' happiness and content. How glad they must be that you're an adult and out of their lives now, how could you continue to insult them with your presence? It's irreconcilable.
It appears to me that trying to continue a relationship with a parent who does not reconcile with themselves their mistake of regretting their child - which is to say, you - requires yet more cognitive dissonance, from both parties. Unless the parent can admit it was wrong to regret having you, there is no room for reconciliation - this is a person definitively declaring that they don't think they are in any way wrong for saying you should not have been born. How ghastly.
However, there is an inaccurate conflation here in the this article. It appears that the parents of the author don't actually regret having her, but they regret the circumstances of her birth. This is different, and trying to join the two concepts it wrong. Teenage parents who are scared, don't know what to do, perhaps give up the child for adoption, or otherwise were totally mentally unprepared for the predicament they've found themselves in is not anywhere near the same level as the Twitter "polymath" who told his seven year old son to his face that he would have been much happier if he had never had him. Indeed, I'd argue that the advice from this author is far less about "tell[ing] your child you regret having them" and more about becoming pregnant without desiring a child.
These are distinct things and, frankly, it's fairly obvious why - a mistaken pregnancy occurs before the child is born, while regret happens after. You can have either or both, but that doesn't make them the same thing. If you do not want a child and become pregnant without wanting to be, you can try to right such a mistake by doing what's best by the child, such as giving her up for adoption when you aren't equipped to care for her yourself. You may enter the situation emotionally unstable, scared, and ready for disaster, but you may find ultimately that you are happy the child was born. Your difficulties may resolve themselves, and once you're in a better place you find that you love and cherish this child, if the circumstances resolve in such a way. Regretting the manner in which you became pregnant is not the same as regretting having the child. It would likely and understandably take some time for this resolution to occur, as not everyone is so lucky as to suddenly realize the moment their child is born that everything is going to be okay and it was meant to be this way, but after the hard work is done many parents still realize that it was in fact for the best, in hindsight. These circumstances are markedly different from still deciding years and years later that you wish you had never had a child. Wishing you became pregnant in a more stable environment is not regret for the child herself.
This is different from what many of these articles are saying. While heartless monstrosities wherein mothers declare that their babies were not "worth" the trouble exist, many demand strongly that we sincerely believe they love these children they wish didn't exist. Mothers will insist in painstaking detail all the proofs that they simply love their kids to bits, but pivot last second saying something like, if they could go back in time they wouldn't have had this child.
This is nonsense. It can only possibly sit comfortably in a mind that does not think too hard. You and I are standing beside a playground, the warmth of children's laughter wafting on the spring breeze as we chat. The children are playing tag and their broad smiles are infectious. It is nearly impossible to not watch them and vicariously enjoy the kind of energy and lack of body aches required for such high energy adventures. You turn to me and say, "Look at my precious boy, the glint of the sun shining off his new haircut. We had such a good time yesterday, we went to his favorite spot for lunch afterwards. If only I could go back in time and never have him, maybe I'd be in an important meeting right now instead."
If you truly love this child, if you are deriving happiness from motherhood, if you see and value your child and their life and impact on your family and others' families, if your heart truly fills up and nearly explodes from the overwhelming, inconceivable love and care you hold inside of it for this precious soul you birthed and nurtured, if you daydream of them growing up and all the adventures you will have with them and that they will have on their own - then how could you ever imagine going back and choosing not to facilitate bringing forth this cherished creation into the world? The very thought is nightmarish to me, not only the idea of not having these children I love so dearly, but that I would ever so selfishly choose to rip their presence from the world if I could somehow stop their conception. The very idea is viscerally disgusting. Horror films are made where the antagonist attempts to utilize some sort of time travel or timeline manipulation to wipe another person from existence and we are intended to, and rightly should be, thoroughly disturbed by such an endeavor. A mother candidly admitting that this is exactly what she would do with her child if given the chance should elicit as much of a reaction.
These articles are sometimes headlined by declarations that these mothers are shattering taboos and redefining motherhood in the process of admitting their parental regret. This should not be seen as okay. You cannot convince me that motherhood should be redefined by women who would choose to be comic book villains, fiddling with timelines to undo their own children for their own personal ambitions. These women mourn their former selves or their corporate aspirations and see their children as roadblocks to the life they wish they had had. This is another symptom of "what do you want to be when you grow up" syndrome, where people put far too much stock in their predictions of their ability to control the trajectory and the future of their own lives. It doesn't work out that way most of the time, and while children are often quite a hard stop on that sentence, the future you wanted is almost never the future you'll have anyway and you're simply taking it out on them - quite unfairly, I may add. These women refuse to move on with their lives and look forward to their new futures, instead choosing to wallow in the "what coulda been" useless hypothetical of something that will never manifest.
Being a parent is wildly complicated and difficult and everyone is affected by it differently. Women have different concerns and struggles and there are many issues that are fact imposed on them culturally, which cause them difficulties and heartache. I had a friend who was often shamed by her family for not having children, despite also being unmarried and struggling to find stable housing. She was with her boyfriend of the time for only a year or so before she became pregnant unintentionally, while the pressure from her family to have children had persisted for many years prior. It would make more sense, to me, assuming they could not have chosen to simply not pressure her at all, to at least harp on her to find someone to have children with before shaming her for not having children? Despite barreling between apartments and housing with a not-so-promising career and no partner to even conceive children, she was badgered by, surprisingly, her sisters moreso than anyone else, to somehow in the midst of all of this, have some kids. How obtuse. These sort of situations are not acceptable and create difficult situations for women who otherwise may actually want children.
I disagree with the lengths to which many modern women convince themselves they must go before having kids, but somewhere to live and a trustworthy male to father the children are surely conditions we could all agree on beforehand, though it seems even these are considered arguable to some. These discussions themselves are not wrong, and given the lengths some people will go toward convincing women to have children as soon as possible despite some very obvious flaws in the plan, they are very important for the well being of those children to be had. But the push to "normalize" everything and "redefine" everything needs to stop somewhere. We can agree that we should make good decisions about whether or not we want to have kids and when to have them, and the fact that some parents regret their children is important as to ensure people are aware kids don't magically fix all of your problems, but ultimately all of these discussions should be done in the interest of ensuring the children are loved and cared for. Yet again, the issue is rooted firmly in the selfish tendencies of these adults to centralize themselves as the core of the discussion, their dissatisfaction with parenthood, their desire to undo their children's existence, their lack of fulfillment are all the most important talking points, rather than minimizing harm done to vulnerable children who deserve to be loved.
And let us not forget that those unloved children will grow up to be adults - and this is why there are terms like "cycle of abuse". Fix your hangups before you dump them on your children and stop trying to celebrate your parental regret for your own self indulgent posturing. You're not the center of the world.
This writing was sort of all over the place, but I don't feel particularly invested in a lengthy proofread and editing process, so I'm slapping the publish button.